The Forsaken Works

2007-09-28T13:59:00.000+08:00

V i c t o r y !

You won the battle against burjeta (#516466).

Battle Report
Money Stolen: $33 711, Land Stolen: 568 m², Clan Points Gained: 0p
Enemy's networth decrease: $107 154 (10,4%)
Your General Alexander lost 500 life.

Units Lost: 0
- None

Units Killed: 2182
- Heavy Infantries: 2182

Buildings Destroyed: 165
- Anti-Missile Systems: 12
- Research Labs: 30
- Barracks: 92
- Power Plants: 31

2007-09-08T20:23:00.000+08:00

The Truth, Or Just My Own Fascination?

Ya know, the bad, the good and the ugly?
How bout the duckling becoming a swan?
Stories of such are much of a folly,
Fiction and the truth, how much have they sworn?

What, in this world, is truth - if there's any.
Is it based on fundamental beliefs,
Scientists shouting "Eureka!" in hurry,
Or Mother Nature toying it and leaves?

The silently fluttering shards of time,
Signifies the shortness of our lives.
Realization of the truth is sublime,
Visions, are they forewarning, or just lies?

A life you may led, a life you may had,
Treasure it, 'cause there's only one you get.
Enjoy those fascinations, good or bad,
And not suffer from the truth, I'll bet.

Why is this void I'm seeing - bottomless...?
Truth to be told - truth? - this is not the truth.
It's a lie, tainted by me nonetheless.
The pure soul, hidden deep within my youth.

This music, so nostalgic, suits the theme,
But youth has been doomed to devastation.
I've walked with you, once upon a dream,
The truth, or just my own fascination?

Higurashi quote II

2007-09-05T21:54:00.002+08:00

What you seek... is an unwavering shadow.
What you sought for... is a lit escape.
What is given to you... is your usual sadness.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Himatsubushi-hen Sono Ni - Kizashi

Can you believe it?

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What you will meet... the cost of kindness.
Where you will fall... the maze of sadness.
What will burn... vengeful thoughts.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Meakashi-hen Sono Ichi - Hatsukoi

Can you believe it?

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What you've lost sight of... your way home.
What you can not keep... the promises we've made.
What you can not erase... my memory.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Meakashi-hen Sono Ni - Kejime

Can you believe it?

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What you erased... my fragrance of memory.
What you see... the scar of my hatred.
What you hear... these footsteps of the past.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Meakashi-hen Sono San - Oni no Ketsumyaku"

Can you believe it?

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What you seek - a bit of comfort.
What you see - the circuit of hatred.
Where you fell - the other side of darkness.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Meakashi-hen Sono Yon - Shikaeshi

Can you believe it?

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What you touched, is a wavering vestige.
What resounded, are those echoes of sadness.
What is this fragrance, your burnt memories.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Meakashi-hen Sono Go - Tsumetai Te

Can you believe it?

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What you pass, is the usually forked path.
What you ran to, is this dark corner.
Where you ended up, is this pitfall of devastation.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Meakashi-hen Sono Roku - Danzai

Can you believe it?

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What captured you, is the afterimage of the past.
What lured you, is the false image of the future.
What was there, is another deception.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Tsumihoroboshi-hen Sono Ichi - Shiawase

Can you believe it?

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What pierced through, were those thoughts of happiness.
What was avoided, were these promises I crossed with my friends.
What was salvaged, was this momentary sentiment.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Tsumihoroboshi-hen Sono Ni - Kaeru Tokoro

Can you believe it?

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Where I ran... my usual way home.
Why i squirmed... this notification of misfortune.
What I opened... this bewildering scrapbook.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Tsumihoroboshi-hen Sono San - Sanjūyon-gō Bunsho

Can you believe it?

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The blood that oozes out, are the memories of the past.
What you noticed, is the weight of your sins.
And what is there, is the decisive future.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Tsumihoroboshi-hen Sono Yon - Chikyuu Shinryaku

Can you believe it?

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Where I wandered off to, is that memorable classroom.
What echoed, was the timer of despair.
Where I ended up, was at the beginning of an end.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Tsumihoroboshi-hen Sono Go - Riteiku

Can you believe it?

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Higurashi quotes.

2007-09-04T20:11:00.001+08:00

What I believe in: that which I can see.
What I believe in: breathing and living.
What I believe in: myself.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Onikakushi-hen Sono Ni - Kakushigoto

Can you believe it?

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What you see here is your fake home.
What you see there is but an empty gaze.
What I see is sadness repeating itself.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Onikakushi-hen Sono San - Gishin

Can you believe it?

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Don't be scared - Beyond tomorrow.
Don't damage it - Your heart.
Don't apologise - Yesterday's everything.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Onikakushi-hen Sono Yon – Yugami

Can you believe it?

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I want you to stare at me - The real me.
I want you to forgive - The whimsical you.
I want you to understand - The other me.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Watanagashi-hen Sono Ichi – Shitto

Can you believe it?

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What I want to see... Is the shape in the dark.
What I want to hear... Are the hesitating footfalls.
What I want to know... Is where I really belong.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Watanagashi-hen Sono Ni - Takano

Can you believe it?

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What's shaking... is your heart.
Bringing it closer... is the shadow of the darkness.
The one who's shivering... is the fake me.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Watanagashi-hen Sono San - Uso

Can you believe it?

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Regret you cannot put an end to...
A story you cannot apologise for...
What's engraved in there... is the other me.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Watanagashi-hen Sono Yon - Negai

Can you believe it?

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It is your warmth that I have forgotten.
It is the footsteps of sadness that will be repeated.
It is the fragment of your memory that draws you to the door.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Tatarigoroshi-hen Sono Ichi - Ani

Can you believe it?

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What cannot be detected in time is that single teardrop.
What cannot be stopped are the screams of despair.
What is to come is the chain of hatred.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Tatarigoroshi-hen Sono Ni - Kizuna

Can you believe it?

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What was desired was eternal slumber.
What was heard were the raindrops of malice.
What was washed away was the door into the darkness.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Tatarigoroshi-hen Sono San - Sakaime

Can you believe it?

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The footsteps of regret deceive you.
The stares of suspicion follow you.
Your other self wanders.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Tatarigoroshi-hen Sono Yon - Nakushimono

Can you believe it?

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The footsteps are the whispers from the past.
The reality can be seen in a fog.
What can be heard is the forgiveness for you.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Tatarigoroshi-hen Sono Go - Shazai

Can you believe it?

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What arrived was the shade of the setting sun.
What wandered in it was the darkness of time.
What met were the gaps between past and future.

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, Himatsubushi-hen Sono Ichi - Hinamizawa

Can you believe it?

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Petals of a Flower

2007-09-01T21:12:00.000+08:00

Petals of a Flower

Spring -
The time of new prosperity,
The buds have begun to grow, and
Taken care by majority;
People reaping what they sowed.

Summer -
Flowers bloom in unison,
In the sweltering heat, and
Hiding deeds that are crimson;
Around the bush they shall beat.

Autumn -
The colours begin to fade,
The petals, they have aged, and
Even the smell has since jaded;
Self beliefs trapped in a cage.

Winter -
Petals have begun shedding,
Shows an end to an era,
The tree continues living;
Bring us to new arena.

My Innermost Desire

2007-08-22T18:29:00.000+08:00

My Innermost Desire

Masks that people always wear,
Is just but an illusion;
Hiding their desires,
And their inclination.

How shall one spot the troubled,
Desperate and in dire?
Not by their appearance,
But innermost desire.

Every man has desires,
Be it good, bad or evil;
You can't hide them forever,
Now people, lift up those veils.

None but few great men done that,
Just how great are they, really?
Judge not by the successes,
But how they learn from follies.

It is your right to keep mum,
One can't force them out of you;
If I were to learn one day,
Those desires, pure and true.

But one last question remained,
Just what do you really see?
You just refuse till the end,
Even when I kneel and plea.

You are always there with me,
Through the ice and the fire;
Hence there's no doubt telling you,
My innermost desire.

2007-08-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2007-08-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

"You must not reveal this. To anyone! You are now bound to the Society of the Whole. Swear this to me, porter. Swear now!"

"All right, then. You're a damned fool! A Dagda-forsaken idiot. And a howling, hopeless, hysterical buffoon! Is that enough swearing for you?"

Quote of the day : Llynia speaking with Tamwyn in Child Of The Dark Prophecy.

2007-08-08T21:54:00.001+08:00

What do you see?

See not with thy eyes.
See not with thy heart.
See the world as you might,
But you won't see a thing.

Thy shouldn't trust thy sense of sight.
Thy shan't believe thyself feelings.
Thy will bathe in ray of lights,
As thy begins to realize the truth.

Invoking God's mercy.
Evoking self's memories.
Soaking in the pool of serenity,
Images surface.

Thy shall get a picture,
Literally or metaphorically.
But one last question remains;
What do you see?

2007-07-25T20:37:00.000+08:00

Time sure fly. Its july, and near the end somemore. My brain is worn out. Tired. Tried from thinking. Tired from wondering. Tired from guessing. Tired of having doubts. Tired. Whats rest when you can't have them? What's dreams when you cant find them? What's goals when you can't reach them? Futile.

Sonata Blue, Pastel Pure, Disillusion. Words that I like right now.

2007-07-04T12:18:00.000+08:00

Played basketball against Whiteley Girl's Team (lower secondary) (no boys team) (Their senior girls national champions o_O) 4v5 =.= won approx 40+ - 8 =.=

Legs injured =.=

2007-06-24T11:43:00.000+08:00

Still haven't touch a single homework. Someone lend me copy their homework please >.> Esp english , chemistry, physics and maths and chinese O_O (it seems as though I'm requesting for ALL =.=)

2007-06-14T23:51:00.000+08:00

The dust has settle
The path is clear.
The heart has been closed
And she prays to God.

"Oh lord! Pray Thy give me an answer"
She kneels and supplicates, waiting hard for an answer.
"Thee ain't privileged"
A voice from the heaven.

Tears flow down the Maiden's cheeks
Staining the purity within.
With much remorse she cried
"I've been fooled by Thy treachery!"

"Treachery it ain't
Motives there aren't.
Repent thee folly
To heaven thee shall"

God summons a door
"Thee answers lie beneath
The key in thee hands now
Open the door now, Virgin Mary"

With she disappearing into the light
God shut the door and heaved a sigh.
"Tis a new chapter for humanity
Soon, with the birth of Christianity."

2007-06-05T21:48:00.000+08:00

Dreams are meant to be shattered;
Twas to show the reality of life
To show the bleakness of the future
To show the ugly side of you.

Brains are meant to be tortured;
As you study from the age of five
As you have numerous tutors
As you have no cue.

Bodies are meant to be battered;
Coz people watch too much sci-fi
Coz bully love to play butcher
Coz entertainments have past their due.

Lives are meant to be ended;
Due to the fact you ain't fine
Due to the fact you are a predator
Due to the fact you are waiting in the queue.

2007-05-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

I came to express my condolences,
Accept my sincere apology.
There's no way to mend the fences,
Publish your biography.

Peace can't be brought back,
The land is stained with blood.
Sin is what you do not lack,
The river is cursed to flood.

Close your eyes now,
Enjoy your final dances.
You'll have to leave now,
For I came to express my condolences.

2007-05-19T21:43:00.000+08:00

Finally treated myself to some stuffs after exam =.= borrowed san guo yan yi (1000 pages o_o) and started watching Blood+ (7 episodes so far kindda interesting)

Basically exam did so-so not too well not too bad (still disappointed with Chinese -.-) English passed due to my godly compo and letter writing saved me o_o (bleh godly coz i never got such high marks before >.>)

Must haved gained quite a few pounds after staying at home and keep eating >.>

2007-05-02T18:41:00.000+08:00

This series of life is getting more and more interesting.

2007-05-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

雨蝶

詞:許常淂/瓊瑤
曲:張宇
主唱:李翊君

愛到心破碎也別去怪誰只因為相遇太美
就算流乾淚傷到底心成灰也無所謂

我破繭成蝶願和你雙飛最怕你會一去不回
雖然愛過我給過我想過我就是安慰

我向你飛雨溫柔的墜像你的擁抱將我包圍
我向你飛多遠都不累雖然旅途中有過痛和淚
我向你追風溫柔的吹只要你無怨我也無悔
愛是那麼美我心陶醉被愛的感覺

     你是風兒我是沙 - 周傑／林心如 
     曲︰呂禎晃
     詞︰瓊瑤

＊女︰你是風兒我是沙　纏纏綿綿繞天涯
      你是風兒我是沙　纏纏綿綿繞天涯

  女︰珍重再見　今宵有酒今宵醉
      對酒當歌　長憶蝴蝶款款飛
      莫再留連　富貴榮華都是假
      纏纏綿綿　你是風兒我是沙

  男︰你是風兒我是沙　纏纏綿綿繞天涯
      你是風兒我是沙　纏纏綿綿繞天涯

  男︰叮嚀囑咐　千言萬語留不住
      人海茫茫　山長水闊知何處
      浪跡天涯　從此并肩看彩霞
      纏纏綿綿　你是風兒我是沙

  女︰點點滴滴　往日云煙往日花
      天地悠悠　有情相守才是家
      朝朝暮暮　不妨踏遍紅塵路
      纏纏綿綿　你是風兒我是沙

      重唱　＊

2007-04-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

Insults are thrown
Hatred is grown
Why are people fussing in such a way
Just over some fool's play?

What are you, kids?
Come to think about it, your brains are no kicks.
If you believe truth is circumstantial evidence
I can easily announce you have lost your innocence.

Dear unworthy academic fellows
Expect me not listen your bellows
Just because you can't outsmart us
Must you invite people to stir up a gust?

Get a grip on yourself dude
Before you get yourself in this feud
Unfortunately you won't listen
The time to your doom has hasten.

You gathered a gang
You borrowed a vampire's fang
Why bother such troubles for
When we can just make love, not war?

But will barbarians ever heed advices?
No, their brains are iced.
But since swords are brandished
Peace must vanquish.

2007-04-18T16:11:00.000+08:00

It's only until now then i realised that all (except 1 or 2 if there's possibly any) of my poems are rather towards the dark side. Not that there aren't any joyous memories I can remember of, but the fact that whose life can be happy and cheerful everyday remains clear. None. Now don't go boasting your life is fine blah blah blah, but deep down inside you you know there's something you're unhappy about, or even unaware that you have such unhappiness. Now I'm going all philosophical again (wow amazed i spelled correctly)

All the personality tests i took showed that I'm a through and through introvert. It's either high 90% (quite a few with 100%) and for those without % to gauge (For these are referred to mainly being socialiseable ) , its either low (which is according to low, medium, high) or lowest (Need I tell more?)

Not that I deliberately keyed in the specific answers to get that "desired" result, but surely those who know me well knows that I do not like talking much. Except to those I am more close to of course.

"Why love when love hurts?
Why love when love ends?
Why love when there's peace,
In the making of friends?"

The most striking lines I remember in "The Forbidden City"

Bleh. I shouldn't go so philosophical. Nobody gives a damn about what I said right?

But I do.

2007-04-16T21:13:00.000+08:00

Hope is a walking dream
It must have walked away from me
Or is it because I have no dream
Inside the hollowness of me?

I've decided to flirt with death
Instead of with girls.
The latter will make me deaf,
Whereas the former, pearls.

To die rich or to die poor,
The main worry of Singapore.
4D toto sweep all tio, budden die,
What's the use when it's now free for all?

Make love, not war.
Come lady, follow me to my lair.
We shall practice what we preach,
On the bed thee shall lay.

When the curtain closed,
The stage will be ours.
Make love, not war,
For a-plenty of hours.

2007-04-04T21:03:00.000+08:00

The tree has returned unscathed. Lets return earth to the county where it belongs.

2007-04-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

The smell of injustice is in the air.

2007-03-29T21:51:00.001+08:00

The pain that got accumulated.
The dream that got annihilated.
The thirst that can't be accommodated.
The home that can't be relocated.

Where is the truth?
Has silence been bought?
Gone is the truth,
Is it involved in a fraud?

A mission is laid,
To find to missing truth.
The word has been said,
It's time to fight nail and tooth.

But alas! The inevitable happened.
The mission was a failure.
Sight began to darken,
And eyes awaiting for their final closure.

2007-03-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

Objectives of the camp(with positive remarks) :

1. To GAIN negative $60++ from this camp.

2. To spend 3D2N POSITIVELY unpleasant.

3. To have some "UNIQUELY" fond memories to share with friends and families.

4. To negatively agree that this camp could foster CLOSER bonds.

5. To have BETTER boredom-management.

Wow all got good points sia not bad eh.

REFLECTIONS DAY 1

1. What are your feelings/ thoughts when you participate in this camp?

The camp will be, and is, crap. No further explanations required. Too much of a good thing will never make it better.

2. From your "MY OBJECTIVE" points, take 3 of yours and explain how and why you arrive at that objective.

2i) To GAIN negative $60++ from this camp. ----- Forced to come to this camp and by attending this camp, $60++ is deducted from the edusave account.

2ii) To negatively agree that this camp could foster CLOSER bonds. ----- You know I know you know.

2iii) To have some "UNIQUELY" fond memories to share with friends and families. ----- Common sense and my intuition tells me so.

Day 2 nothing. Lazy type. Yawnz.

To summarise, this is the BEST(O Rly?) camp I've ever been to. Period.

2007-03-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

Itsuka mita yume
Todokanai tsubuyaki dake
Yoru no hikari ni tsutsumarete samayoi yuku
Yagate mihiraku sono hitomi  Unmei nara
Semete  Sou, ima dake...

Kanawanai to utsumuku  Yorukaze ni tada unadare
Namida  Tsukikage  Te no hira ni afureteyuku
Nani ga hoshii no?
Kuchibiru wa yami ni furuete ita

Deatta ano toki ni mune tsuita egao
Mamoritakute  Zutto kuzuresou na yakusoku wo
Itami tsubusu hodo ni dakishimeteta

Soba ni ireru dake de
Onaji jikan ni irareru dake de
Tooi kioku  Yomigaeru kanashimi mo atatamete yukeru noni
Mawari tsuzukete iru omoi ni
Yasuragi michita owari wa kuru no?
Kurikaeshita toikake wa ten ni mai
Ake no sora no  Hikari ni kawaru

Subete maboroshi  Ukande wa mata kieteku
Janen kakikesu yubisaki ni karamitsuita mujaku no kusari
Mogaku hodo kodoku wo andeita

Tachikirareru you ni kibisu kaesu kaze
Tsumetasugiru ima mo "Kimi ga iru kara dayo" to
Yami ni ochita kotoba  Hanarenai

Iki wo shiteru dake de
Onaji itami wo kanjiru dake de
Honno sukoshi shiawase wo tsumiageru ai
Kizuite shimatta
Kogoete kata yoseru hitomi ni
Mamoritai mono  Mitsukatta kara
Tsugi no yoake  Te ni shiteta koukai de sabita kakera

Fureau dake de sono shiawase wo omotte dake de
Komiageteku
Tsuka no ma no sayonara mo  Kienu kizuna ni naru to

Soba ni irareru dake de
Onaji jikan ni irareru dake de
Tooi kioku  Yomigaeru kanashimi mo atatamete yukeru noni
Kizamikomarete ita shirushi ni
Michibikare mata taoreru toki mo
Mitsumeatta isshun ga sennen no kioku wo koe
Hikari ni kawaru

2007-02-27T21:02:00.000+08:00

Failed Geography. Guess there's always a first =.=

It's just getting more and more interesting, doesn't it?

2007-02-26T20:05:00.000+08:00

Do you want to be someone who is winning in a losing situation,
Or someone losing in a winning situation?
What's the difference between them,
Or are they any to begin with?

Hamlet is a play within a play,
People have words within words.
There are dangers within safety,
Yet safety within dangers too.

Think before you say a word,
It may be the cause of your death.
Pray before you curse a bird,
It may take away your breath.

Oh before I forget,
Do you have brains to think anyway?

2007-02-25T09:19:00.000+08:00

Dove of peace,
Fog of war;
Curses of life,
Blessing of death.

People have forgotten,
Of what they should not.
The opposite of life isn't death,
It's only an indifference.

2007-02-13T21:12:00.000+08:00

Funny ain't it. humans can forget stuffs easily, especially those non-important stuffs. Yet there will sometimes be this sudden remembrance of those stuffs. This led to one question: Does Humans really forget some stuff, or it was stored somewhere in the mind and will only be found when it was searched hard enough ?

Manipulated. Are you blind? Yes you are. Mutilated too.

The time that come, will come.

2007-02-08T15:31:00.000+08:00

The time that come will come,
But it's only just the matter of time.
Stop at your steps now,
And look what you've become.

Clever? You will but not.
Generous? You shall but not.
But that missing link,
Shall cause your hopes to sink.

Jealous? You are but shan't.
Frustrated? You are but shan't.
But yet again that missing link,
Will make your happiness grim.

What is that missing link?
Who would ever think?
When shall the answer be unveiled?
The time that come will come,
Till then it shall be revealed.

2007-01-25T17:44:00.000+08:00

What is the what I've been referring to;
Who is the who you are?
Why must one plus one be two;
When must I realize that the light at the end is far?
Where are the childhood fantasies I had traveled through;
Which harms me more - Nicotine or tar?
One last question to ask me and you;
How am I suppose to know all this ah?

The subjects now have become fearsome -
To fear or not to fear, that is the question.
The books - to carry is so tiresome;
And such is the scarcity of relaxation.
The teachers - oh my! - are ever so gruesome;
They'll make sure you never lost your concentration.
Handsome troublesome bothersome -
Hey wait what's the connection?!

I saw the light,
The light.
Illusion - or was it true?
How it could have ever come from a sky so blue?
Come midnight, the lightning strikes;
My heart and soul will go on strike.
Gone are the days that are gone;
Yet bygones will never quite be bygones.

Scenes keep repeating in my mind;
As though it is trying to warn me,
Warn me of the things that only can be seen when you are blind;
Of the things that are mean.
What those things are I could not define,
Deny and may God bless thee.
Pray, could you please close that door behind?
Destroy all hopes of letting me go, letting me free.

End my suffering
Cant you see my plight?
Why are those thoughts lingering -
Those thoughts - Oh those thoughts! - that blight
My heart and - oh! - that penetrating
Light; how it cuts me down with delight.
Lord, pray Thy release me from my thinking
Of suicide.

Alas! It was only until then, then;
I saw an angel. An angel.
So sweet; sweet.
A life-savior then, a life-savior now;
But it won't last for long, nay it won't.
Once the angel deserted me, flew away;
Demon will take over - Nay dominate! -
And I'll plunge into darkness; eternal darkness, till I be saved; rescued once more; again.

Every decision counts right now,
It boils down to one moment -
Either being steadfast,
Or hesitation.
Time is running
Out for us.
Amen.
Cursed.

Done by Goh Yoke Hwee. 25/1/2007

2007-01-24T20:27:00.000+08:00

Sadistic. Introvert.

speechless.

Current book I'm reading : Great Expectations by Charles Phan Zhong Wei's friend Charles Dickens.

2007-01-20T10:27:00.000+08:00

Forgot to add in that shiying knows she will be born in 21st december 2007. How amazing is that?

2007-01-19T22:20:00.000+08:00

Mentally tired.

And this is only the starting of the year.

How great it is.

And been feeling kind of weak these few days.

Jealous?

Gosh. I want a rest.

2007-01-11T16:38:00.000+08:00

I cant accept this. no i think i can but i dunwan to. but still its staring right at me. so am i back to it. why am i denying its existance. human instinct? or coz im afraid of it. who want to accept harsh truth and reality. even though its haunting you. who would want? nobody. ponder over it? and decide the time to realise its been me who was in the wrong? near impossible. people do not accept their own follies. they blame others. why? they think they are perfect. not in the wrong. there are perfect examples. ask yourself. have you pushed your blames to others while you know that you are the one at fault? confirm plus chop there is. but to think about it again. am i really in fault? even if it is, why must people magnify it intensify it and aiming the insult at the acute point? So does that mean older people have the rights to scold younger people? That means parents are liable to scold their children without any reason at all? Older siblings to bully younger siblings? Especially when theres 6 elder sister and you are the only boy including the fact the youngest the and youngest sister having a 6 year gap between? Including the fact that we are not even blood related? venting anger on me. i have none to vent on. nobody to talk to. who really understand me? none. not their fault anyway. feel like loner. msn also nobody to talk to. neither do i socialise that much. where is the answer? staring at me right now. but i ignore it. will it help? yes and no. and somehow i don't know either. what ian yap said this recess struck me. thanks ian.

Now i think i know why people are fond of children. they remind people of their childhood when they were all naive about things and leading carefree lives.

socialising. easier said than done.

for the first time now i am thinking that being pessimist is bad. but it has become my habit of thinking and thus my character.

Time to look for help.

2007-01-09T20:02:00.000+08:00

After 2 years then I realise that its not that I dislike that particular species, but only I have a phobia of them.

But why?

2006-12-20T17:55:00.000+08:00

Reading a very interesting book right now.

"Desperation" by Stephen King.

Been a long time since I last read a book that interesting.

Not recommended for those who prefer reading books that has a more straight to point content.

As this is my first time reading a book by him, I had to re-read the first few pages in order to know the style of writing. Very interesting style indeed.

2006-12-18T22:16:00.000+08:00

Animes are heart wretching. My heart hurts after watching them. That's life, isnt it? Maybe you don't understand this, or maybe you will, but think will ya? Guess not.

2006-12-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

To be, or not to be: that is the question: Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep: No more; and by a sleep to say we end The heartache and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to,--'t is a consummation Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep; To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub: For in that sleep of death what dreams may come, When we have shuffled off this mortal coil, Must give us pause: there's the respect That makes calamity of so long life; For who would bear the whips and scorns of time, The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely, The pangs of despised love, the law's delay, The insolence of office and the spurns That patient merit of the unworthy takes, When he himself might his quietus make With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear, To grunt and sweat under a weary life, But that the dread of something after death, The undiscover'd country from whose bourn No traveller returns, puzzles the will And makes us rather bear those ills we have Than fly to others that we know not of? Thus conscience does make cowards of us all; And thus the native hue of resolution Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought, And enterprises of great pith and moment With this regard their currents turn awry, And lose the name of action.: William Shakespeare, "Hamlet", Act 3 scene 1

2006-12-10T21:19:00.000+08:00

Plans always look good on paper, but does it work well?

7 man clan ---

All 7 get the following :

3000 Money Production
1000 Engineer Effectiveness
1500 Satellite Technology
1200 Market Discount
800 Missile Accuracy

Respectively.

Total research : 7500 sciences. Total networth : 90, 000.

Taking into accounts that all must get a Laser Beam Satellite, another 60k networth will be added.

Fix networth till now : 150, 000

All has to build 5 headquarters, giving a 25, 000 networth increase.

Fix networth till now : 175, 000

Including the factor that Missiles (taking into accounts of Nuclear Missiles as it gives the highest networth), all 7 must have 3 Missile Silos and 3 Nuclear Missiles.

Networth added : 21, 060.

Fix networth till now : 196, 000 (rounded to make calculation easier)

Now for the units breakdown. Just say we have a 550, 000 networth cap, that means only 354, 000 networth are avaliable for units, the buildings to house them, and power plants. Lets analyse.

2006-12-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

Taking into accounts that 354, 000 networth is left to build units, power plants, buildings that house the units, and the amount of land, the procedure is tedious.

Starting with Hover Tanks ~~~

Networth of the following unit/buildings/land (1 of each is taken into account)
Hover Tank : 66
War Factory : 66
Power Plant : 27
Land : 1 (rounded to make calculation easier)

Assuming 200 power plants are enough, we'll have a fix 5400 networth for all (so that means we are left with 350,000 networth instead of 354, 000 [Rounded])

10 Hover requires 1 War Factory to house, thus 726 networth for 10 Hover 1 War Factory (exclude the amount added for land ATM)

With 350, 000 networth to spare, calculation is done that we can have 482 of such pattern. In other words, 4, 820 Hover Tanks and 482 War Factories can be built at the expense of 350, 000 nw. But with land, maximum usage is 19, 000 land, which means 19, 000 networth. 19, 000 networth is equivalent to 260 Hover Tanks and 26 War Factories.

Conclusion : 196k fix networth, 200 power plants, 5 HeadQuarters, 4 560 Hover Tanks, 456 War Factories, 19 000 land. It should be 550k networth. +/-

Some extra notes : Hover Tank deals 35 damage. 35 X 4, 560 / 3 = 53, 200 (Maximum damage able to deal)

Next with RAH-66 Comanche ~~~

Comanche : 94
Airfield : 54

5 Comanches are housed in 1 Airfield. Hence 524 networth for 1 such pattern. In other words,
667 Airfields and 3335 Comanches.

Maximum usage of land : 23000

23000 networth is equal to 43 of such patterns.

Conclusion: 196k fix networth, 200 power plants, 5 HQ, 3120 Comanches, 624 Airfields, 23000 land.

Extra notes : Comanche deal 35 damage. 35 X 3120 / 3 = 36, 400 (Maximum damage)

Next with Heavy Infantries ~~~

Heavy Infantry: 44
Barracks: 36

1 Barrack house 20 Infantries. 916 networth per pattern. Which means 382 of such patterns; 382 Barracks, 7640 Heavy Infantries.

Max. Land: 17 000

Conclusion: 196k fix networth, 200 power plants, 5 HQ, 364 Barracks, 7280 Heavy Infantries, 17 000 land

Extra notes : Heavy Infantries deal 15 damage. 15 X 7280/3 = 36, 400

(Hmm rushing for time here)

Next F/A-18 Super Hornet ~~~

F/A-18 Super Hornet: 84
Airfield : 54

NW : 474
No. of patterns : 738
No. of land : 24k land

Conclusion: 196k fix networth, 200 power plants, 5 HQ, 24 000 land, 688 airfields, 3440 F/A-18 Super Hornet.

Extra notes: F/A-18 Super Hornet deals 55 damage. 55 X 3440/2 = 94 600

Till here.

2006-12-02T21:42:00.000+08:00

Imma kind to treat yu tiong arcade X)

It sure is much better out in the open than in the enclosed space of home.

Im broke now T_T

Its better to take a walk with someone than alone.

Think. Have you think of anything yet?

2006-12-01T23:04:00.000+08:00

"Enveloped in a fulgor of sunshine that killed all thought, oppressed the heart, withered all impulses of strength and energy."

Go on, act on your impulses. There's always an outcome waiting for you. Dare|2|Try?

2006-11-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

Somehow animax shows make me realise alot of things. Yea... Sad but true.

Go ahead, cover your sins with sins.

2006-11-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

http://fan.farther-away.net/snc/song.php

hmm o well general last stand bo liao coz 4th hq tio bombarded -.- by nukes and sat T_T

Under seige now

2006-11-25T20:09:00.000+08:00

Your clan has declared war against these clans
Wolfpack (#15993)	12h 0min
Crocodile Hunters (#93131)	12h 1min

These clans have declared war against your clan
Enola Gay (#6180)	2h 4min
FragMania (#2195)	1h 21min

Yu tiong please cry for me.
4 wars and we dying horribly.

1h 10min

[FrMa]Manic Marine Fragger (#372069) attacked you and you lost the battle. You lost 54 m² and $2 106. Your networth decreased with $3 070 (0,6%).

Attacker Losses: 266 units
266 RAH-66 Comanches.

Defender Losses: 0 units and 22 buildings
8 Missile Turrets, 6 Machinegun Turrets, 4 SAM Sites, 1 Torpedo Launcher, 3 Power Plants.

[HCAT]Hellcats KiLL FoR BeeR (#217668) attacked [FrMa]Manic Leading Fragger (#418127) and gained 10 clan points. In this attack, 272 m² and $6 697 was stolen.

Attacker Losses: 0 units
None.

Defender Losses: 553 units and 14 buildings
553 Grenade Soldiers, 4 Barracks, 10 Power Plants.

This is called ownage

But...

	1min	[HCAT]Hellcats KiLL FoR BeeR (#217668) was attacked by [FrMa]Manic Marine Fragger (#372069). Attacker Losses: 64 units 64 RAH-66 Comanches. Defender Losses: 200 units and 22 buildings 200 Machine Gunners, 6 Missile Turrets, 5 Machinegun Turrets, 5 SAM Sites, 1 Torpedo Launcher, 1 Anti-Missile System, 3 Power Plants, 1 Advanced Power Plant.
	5min	[HCAT]Hellcats KiLL FoR BeeR (#217668) was attacked by [FrMa]Manic Purple Fragger (#241786). Attacker Losses: 70 units 1 B-2 Stealth Bomber, 69 RAH-66 Comanches. Defender Losses: 170 units and 21 buildings 170 Machine Gunners, 8 Missile Turrets, 4 Machinegun Turrets, 5 SAM Sites, 3 Torpedo Launchers, 1 Barracks.
	5min	[HCAT]Hellcats KiLL FoR BeeR (#217668) was attacked by [FrMa]Manic Purple Fragger (#241786). Attacker Losses: 63 units 1 B-2 Stealth Bomber, 62 RAH-66 Comanches. Defender Losses: 173 units and 22 buildings 173 Machine Gunners, 6 Missile Turrets, 4 Machinegun Turrets, 4 SAM Sites, 1 Torpedo Launcher, 3 Anti-Missile Systems, 2 Barracks, 2 Power Plants.
	5min	[HCAT]Hellcats KiLL FoR BeeR (#217668) was attacked by [FrMa]Manic Purple Fragger (#241786). Attacker Losses: 70 units 2 B-2 Stealth Bombers, 68 RAH-66 Comanches. Defender Losses: 198 units and 26 buildings 198 Machine Gunners, 7 Missile Turrets, 3 Machinegun Turrets, 8 SAM Sites, 1 Torpedo Launcher, 3 Barracks, 3 Power Plants, 1 Advanced Power Plant.
	5min	[HCAT]Hellcats KiLL FoR BeeR (#217668) was attacked by [FrMa]Manic Purple Fragger (#241786). Attacker Losses: 71 units 71 RAH-66 Comanches. Defender Losses: 196 units and 24 buildings 196 Machine Gunners, 6 Missile Turrets, 4 Machinegun Turrets, 3 SAM Sites, 2 Torpedo Launchers, 2 Anti-Missile Systems, 4 Barracks, 2 Power Plants, 1 Advanced Power Plant.
	5min	[HCAT]Hellcats KiLL FoR BeeR (#217668) was attacked by [FrMa]Manic Purple Fragger (#241786). Attacker Losses: 71 units 2 B-2 Stealth Bombers, 69 RAH-66 Comanches. Defender Losses: 190 units and 23 buildings 190 Machine Gunners, 4 Missile Turrets, 7 Machinegun Turrets, 3 SAM Sites, 1 Torpedo Launcher, 3 Anti-Missile Systems, 2 Barracks, 3 Advanced Power Plants.

Good things dun last long -_-"

2006-11-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

Nvm failed to attend friend music performance -.- was at 12.30pm -.- told em 1pm then end lerh T_T

then go friend house lor... play absketball -.- (only thing we ever do anyway -.-) played 4 v 4 with some aged 18-20++ ppl i think -.-

full of injuries.... -.- after 2 of our players are down(1 injured his foot while the other was knocked down while jumping in the air -_- ouch tt hurts) we stop playing (they got 1 down -.-) nidda pratice my defending skills more -.-

Eat dinner at friend house again :D

reached home at 9.30 ahhhh been going home later every night -.- o well nth to do at home anyway.

new domestic helper has arrived. What now?

2006-11-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

Left home at 1pm... then eat at macdonal until 1.48pm.... then go the the dunno where in front tp library to go see my friend having rehearsal (guangyang band) and borrowed 2 books. Hmmm i can dun return the mr midnight -.- friend put card into the dunno what machien check whether got fiens i juz throw the book on the blue pad :D muahahahahah and another book is "a guide to english literature: pygmalion" now i nid find the book called "pygmalion" -.- o well guide book oso can, help with my tuition hw :D

then walked to his house under the scorching sun -.- the out come of wearing a white T shirt and a white jersey inside with a long pants and black jersey shorts inside = HOT AND SWEAT

An hour of LAN dota b4 4 people heading down to the court. played until when we decide to go back then the friend come down -.- then 1 v 4 him :P 6.30pm then go back his house -.-

8people eating steamboat in the kitchen hahs. helped peopel take food de i so kind T_T i help 4 people while my other friend help the other 4 on the other side (including ourselves) I think i gave the girl too much of the same food until she sick of it =X lol. (all 14 years old anyway) then my friend keep snatching from her anyway -.- still wonder why he still tt skinny lol (he ate 3 bowls of rice -.-)

after 1 hour we finally ate finish everything X) yum yum.

after 1 hour of digesting food, we went play basketball again -_-" 9pm - 10pm.

From 9.45 onwardsplayed in total darkness kewl. Juz lights from the houses nearby lol. 8 ppl playing, 6 wear black shirt and shorts, 1 wear white shirt black short, 1 wear totally white. ball si darkish brown. :D fun lol

10.39 finally reach home X) tired and full and hungry=X

nites :)

2006-11-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

After 25 hours 23 minutes of not eating any solid food (From 14 november 2006 7.12pm - 15 november 15 2006 8.35pm), i treat myself to a huge dinner o.o o well still hungry =X

Wanton mee, duck mee, chicken chop, greentea flavour bubble tea double pearl, thriple chocolate cornetto, and 3 slices of pizza. approx price of $21.70. hmm still hungry -.- reminds me of good old time with my tuition teacher and the class -.- treated us pizza hut -.- hmm i think i ordered 7 pizzas and my friend 4 -.- final price for tt day is $300++ :D o well she say she dun mind lalala ~~~ (though i noe she mind =X)

Msn having prob aww so sad T_T haiz.

2006-11-12T23:09:00.000+08:00

Family went sentosa only me stay at home -.- then cnt stand boredom then go friend house as usual =X

Basketball now i so easy tired T_T lol really no stamina must build up on tt =X

Water nvr taste tt good when u r in need of it

ate at his house for lunch and dinner =X

and i ate the most =X so paiseh

I still like the feeling of 1 family sitting together having dinner. Much laughters and plans could be heard by the elders o.o (in this case the parents of my friend) Interesting. Comparing the food mah... my friend's mum is the gravy, sauce and soup nicer, but my mother is the food itself o.o but the soup gravy, sauce is like.. err... =X Yea friend's mum cooking good too :D

9.30pm reached home X) hahs latest time i reach home other than other reasons -.-

gotta wake up early to use com and gotta help delivery -.- T_T FOC somore -.- help father tt is -.- 10am. Clash with eldds argh. and fatehr say his work more impt. he dun work where got money o.o yea quite true =/

2006-11-10T19:26:00.000+08:00

Discussed about the outcome of choosing different classes with yu tiong in the morning... and here's the outcome

Pure science ~~~~ People in there tend to calculate the amount of pen ink that will be used for every assignment and calculate the force needed to write the words perfectly and the amount of time etc etc. They might re-do the assignment because of the chemicals in the pen may not be absorbed well by the paper.

Pure Geography ~~~~ People in there tend to find the best suitable spot to do their assignments. They only emphasise on using recycled paper because they are environmentally friendly after learning geography in depths. They will not do assignments printed on paper that is not recycled.

Pure History ~~~~ As said by yu tiong, they are following the traditions of the history. So everything about them will be very old dating back to the 1500s.

Pure literature ~~~ People in there tend to read novels before doing any assignments. And before they know it, the deadline for the assignment is up after they finish reading it.

POA ~~~ according to yu tiong. people in there tend to pluck out their calculator keys to stick in the chart. And thus only 33% passed POA. they couldnt calculate after keys are taken out. Mr soh is hunched because he is busy plucking the keys out.

Arts ~~~~ People in there tend to decorate their assignments, whether art or not. For art lesson its greatly appreciated but for non-art class it is just for decoration purpose without the main purpose of doing the assignment itself.

D&T ~~~ same as arts.

Did i miss out anything? o.o

2006-11-07T18:56:00.000+08:00

apparently 3e5 is the thriple science class. no best class. all are equal. schools praticing democratic nowadays? anyway. if they wan prove tt 3e1 not the best 3e2 not 2nd best. isnt it still the same after they switch around? its juz the numbers going backwards in this situation. if they really want to prove there's no the so called best class, why dun they mix the class around for eg like 3e2 sci, 3e5 geo, 3e4 dnt, 3e1 art etc etc. some ppl say its juz to amke things easier for chers. but heck, its still the same.

walked with you liang to bishan then turn towards raffles and walk towards there... wtf man raffles tt building so long -.- walked apporx 10 mins then managed to not see the fence of raffles -.-

1 hour to reach destination -_-"

maid go abck homeland lerh T_T

haiz... guess have to do my own stuff liao T_T

2006-11-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

Ok went bishan library -.- very neat there -.- 3 shelves juz stephen king books only -.-

then ltr afternoon have some basketball-cum-chinese chess match -.- win ppl at chi chess lose at basketball -_-"

ate dinner at friend house. o well guess eating as a whole family feels great X) 3rd time eating as a whole family together (all 3 times at his house with his family)

went home at 8 -.- sis attitude problem. wan kp about me coming home late? see the time u come home normally. NORMALLY.i'm kind enuf to say normally. which is 12am.

KK i'm waiting ~~~ tick tock tick tock.

2006-11-04T23:22:00.000+08:00

Ok got hooked on animax channel now omfg -.-

Though most shows are just repeats all the time... but those main shows are ... well cool.

Some shows i prefer watching : Emma, Girl From Hell, Honey & Clover, Chronicles Of The Wings ( All characters are the same as Cardcaptor Sakura... if u noe what show is the latter -.- but juz in a more chim form i should say -.-) and many more wow i can faint le spend most of my time watching tv lerh -_-"

Now wan play games with me need book lerh -.- Just have to say 3-6 for weekdays are for watching tv X)

Now saturdays 7pm have to watch Emma :D hmm people chase after korean shows i watch anime -.-

Still ache ahhhh =X

2006-11-03T22:08:00.000+08:00

Look at Yu Tiong blog to see alot of zhao here zhao there -_-" Indeed alot of zhaoing -.-

Run from 1st stop of 354 to chalet. Then went arcade the gear spoil spoil use alot ahnd power then tired. Then cycling until tired. then cycle AGAIN full speed dunno how long -.- shalom good stamina sia -.- then ltr eat until tired (walao eat so much sia -.- at least i helped clear up a large proportion of the food -_- best time to eat is after 10.30pm -_-") then ltr run to interchange (paiseh hor I told you nt refill water bottle... and indeed my choice is correct. I dun mind yu tiong dehydrate for tt 40 min =P i wouldnt want to miss the last train home -.-)

Hmm went bus interchange... yu tiong say follow light source.. nearly follow until shopping mall instead of interchange -.- then run until say dun take 88 take mrt -.- then yu tiong say why we r the only people running amist all those calm people -_-" then walk until i ask him ask the service ppl whether can catch the north south train. yu Tiong say tt maybe tt service person see him short then shrug him away wor O_O quoted from him -_-"

It seemed strange. It seemed alot people are pissed buring the time in chalet for one reason or the other -.- mostly for those tt stayed. But it seemed tt those tt nvr stay seemed the complete opposite -.- (yes i'm referring to 2 people) Reverse psycology -.-?

Guess BBQ you really need some common sense bah -.- See the number of food bought and the people. And how much will they eat (this require good estimation skills, sadly i dun haf -.-) If low food high people, get the food ASAP. If high food low people. Take your time -.- wait till ending nobody fight with you then slowly cook -.- In this case it seemed like average food, but tt most people eat little -.- Or was the food over bought? dunno =X Alot leftovers if i recall correctly.

Still in short. Tiring day -.-

I lack the courage >_<

2006-11-01T10:04:00.000+08:00

Managed to use com until 3am I dunno why =.= First time =.=

2006-10-30T22:12:00.000+08:00

I am and will be betrayed by my own words. Soon.

2006-10-27T20:09:00.000+08:00

Guess watching movies with friends are better than with families.

Went to watch "Death Note" with Ian Tan, his bro and his bro friend/couz i dunno which =.=

Interesting. Funny too. Some twists in ending. Dunno larh people might have seen anime / the books liao then this nth much bah =.=

Too bad in jap. need to read subtitles, but worthwhile hahs. starting the subtitle is "Fuck you" LOL

tt person with the book is fucking smart man. planned things beforehand... pro pro pro. Can even put television in a tidbit packet and the book inside... pro sia.

O well feel like watching again =X

And i cant go ELDDS tmr. Shoes my mum went wash haven dry =.= and tt tmr nid go dunno where pray =.= free thinker nid follow budist parents to pray T_T

2006-10-26T19:02:00.000+08:00

I'm not a heartless person not wanting to take the screwed up class photograph. Its like HELLO? WE OREDI FUCKING TOOK A FUCKED UP PHOTOGRAPH AT MARCH? SO WHAT THE FUCK IS THE BIG DEAL OF NOT TAKING THE SO CALLED LAST FUCKED UP CLASS PHOTOGRAPH? FUCK NI LAH ASS HOLES. AND WHO IS THE MOTHER FUCKER WHO HIT ME. GO FUCK UR MOTHER UPSIDE DOWN INSIDE OUT LAH NA BEI CHI BAI ASS HOLES

U THINK I NT SAD AH. NA BEI.

DUN GO CHALET CANNOT AH. GO THERE WASTE MONEY WASTE TIME NIA. AND WHO THE FUCK CAME UP THE IDEA OF CHALET? THERE ARE OTHER MORE MEANINGFUL GATHERINGS U NOOB

GOD DAMN IT AND ELDDS FUCKING MADE IT WORSE. WAN ME GO DRAW THE FUCKING BEATTY SCHOOL CREST NA BEI LAH U THINK MY ART GOOD AH ASS HOLES

AND TT FUCKING IAN YAP IS A FUCKING MOTHER FUCKER WHO FUCK HIS MOTHER EVERY SINGLE SECOND. NO WONDER HE GOT NO COMMON SENSE. WHAT A FUCKING NOOB CHAO CHI BAI KANINA CHI BAI BASTARD

HE FUCKING SAY "I CANT GET INTO PURE BIO LIAO THAT TEACHER WHO BRIEF US SAY GOT 47 PEOPLE CHOOSE BIO AND SHE SAY I AM ONE OF THEM WHO CANNOT GO IN." AND SOON AFTER WITH " WHAT YOU THINK OF MY CHANCE OF ENTERING PURE BIO?" HEARING TT I AM FUCKING PISSED OFF. WASTING MY FUCKED UP TIME LISTENING TO HIM. ITS LIKE HELLO?!?! U SAID NO CHANCE AND LTR ASK ME WHAT I THINK OF YOUR CHANCE?I SAY 0% U FUCKING KPKB SAY I PESSIMIST WATEVA SHIT. WHAT BOUT YOU? LOOK AT YOURSELF LAH NA BEI FUCKER. FUCK TOO MUCH UNTIL NO COMMON SENSE AH.

GOD DAMN IT I WILL NOT SHOW MY REPORT BOOK UNTIL THE LAST DAY OF HOLIDAY AT 11.59PM GOD DAMN MY FUCKING GUARDIANS

DAMN THOSE BASTARDS AND BITCHES WHOEVER U ARE DAMN U ALL GOD CONDEMED U ALL TO HELL

2006-10-24T08:55:00.000+08:00

Somehow my results are good... but somehow i feel sad. Isnt it strange? Its like you have been with tt class with 2 years, regardless of the people you hate or the people you are friends with, its still saddening to leave them isnt it? And Yu Tiong will be the only boy with me T_T

Yu Tiong's result

English = 59%
Maths = 87%
Science = 78%
Geography = 76%
History = 70%
Literature = 57%

EMSH ( Eng Maths Sci Highest Humanities) 300/400
EMSH Ranking 20/198
Level Ranking 54/198

My result

English 63%
Maths 91%
Science 83%
Geography 80%
History 63%
Literature 73%

EMSH (Geography) 317/400
EMSH ranking 5
Overall ranking 17

But still not much people from our class can be able to get into pure bio? Haiz? Ian Yup say his class got at least 5 people dunwan take pure bio... so maybe people still got chance even if they are >45?

But still it was only until after my friend from P sch visit me at afternoon (on monday) then I truly realise if we were good friends, the relationship we have will last a long time. I still have some other friends whom I play basketball with. Yea.. Guess such stuff will get over once you get used to the surroundings.

2006-10-21T21:29:00.000+08:00

so bored.

YTD play basketball so sad de... First match is 2 v 2 me and my friend against my p-sch best player and his friend. Since tt best player is rough rough de i suffered much injuries =.= (becoz i'm the defender)

Then continue play =.= after her left tt is =.= WHITELEY PEOPLE U LISTEN UP IF U WAN KA CHIAO PEOPLE THEN FUCK OFF FROM THE BASKETBALL COURT AND DUN EVER FUCKING SET A FIRE THERE WITH UR FUCKED UP LIGHTERS

speaking of setting up fire.. should i call their school and inform the principal? hmm.

Playing basketball with girls are dangerous =X no offence ah. Cannot play rough with them =X And cannot defend properly coz cannot anyhow touch =X Anyway tts a good thing either... U pass the ball to a girl, then she shoot = sure score coz nobody bother to guard -_-"

got injured and injured other people. LOL (boys only)

Another point... Playing basketball with watches and long nails are dangerous -_-"

Today is a boring day. Haiz. did nothing much and hence nothing much to post =.=

Go listen to eyes on me. Very nice song.

2006-10-20T21:28:00.000+08:00

Eyes On Me By Faye Wong

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar
My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

*Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
You're tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming x2

Melodies Of Life

Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark,
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart.
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain,
Melodies of lief - love's lost refrain.

Our paths they did cross, though I cann't say just why.
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye.
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold.

In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me.
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name.

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of Life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds - forever and beyond.

So far and away, see the bird as it flies by.
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky.
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings.
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings.

In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us closer and now leaves me behind?

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying bird - forever and on.

If I should leave this lonely world behind,
Your voice will still remember our melody.
Now I know we'll carry on.
Melodies of Life,
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts, as long as we remember.

These two are the lyrics of songs from FFX and FFIX respectively. Those are.. considered as sad songs bah. To me that is... Of coz Tan Yu Tiong the noob appreciater for music will say both sucks as its just song blah blah blah craps. No wonder his Literature got 38... (cnt say him lah i oso 38... He 38/100 i 38/50 -_-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LocdLRZqICE -> Eyes on me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnWDnYF71E4&mode=related&search= -> Melodies of life

With the video, guess the impact made will be much larger...

2006-10-19T23:53:00.000+08:00

Lol kallang is so fun. =.=

Used condom found!!! alert alert!!!! LOL (and wei ghee still go take it even after those 4[sp,ht,kp,ht] say its a condom le =_=)

very slack. Did nothing. threw 5 bags away -_-"

MY COPI LEAK!!!!!

Jogged around for 1 round with wei ghee. so long nvr run. morale of story: dun run near traffic

Then eventually after long long long long long time the bus came. Then hmm... school bored LOL

Tio kept back behind 20 mins -.-

Went back Kumon. I am so welcomed. They were oso shocked to see me >< Hahs coz din go since March le =X

They despo to keep me le. They want me finish english =X 2nd highest is only Level G.. i Level J leh -_-"

O well still very fun. Went watch the video only for those they have confidence will finish the programme de... and guess what? I the only boy out of 15 people -_-"

Tmr no scool yay (or today since its 12.06am now -_-)

Sleep early =P tell ppl early sleep i nvr do it =X nvr yi shen zuo ze

2006-10-17T21:26:00.000+08:00

Today so fun and so suay? =X

Uh huh go sch. then mass revision. maths 92/100 charles the pro who say everything is easy got 70 -_-" and i pwn yu tiong he got 89 =P

English cham LOL 15/30 -_-" HOLY I DUN WAN FAIL ENG

Then dunno which teacher raid classroom and WHOOHOO we rock. Lol they suay sit nearest to door ><

Then chi 71/100 ><><><

HISTORY LOL 57/100 TIO PWNED BADLY =X YU TIONG 73/100 I BASH HIM UP !!! (and charles the pro got 77 -_-)

Guess when you become optimistic about something... the reaction is totally different -_-" SA1 i got 61/100 and immediately the paper was crushed and thrown o_O But this year LISTEN to the marks 57/100 i was like "ok not that bad..." and was laughing at my own score -_-" Coz if u take it lightly, its much better. Just stress over english bah -.- FAIL TT ONE U CAN GO DIE LE =.= Just look at the people tt are far worse than you. Alot seh ><><

Then go cat high. The best. Dejun and Charles si buay sick -.- Erm i dunno yu tiong will mention it in his blog... but heck -.- Just plain sick -.- They aim to see the girls *ahem* (upskirt they call it) And ... =.= o well guess there's no need for detailed explanation -_-"

Then we have a match fixing scandal LOL. We noe how the points will be counted and how they will be counted winner. Then we let those noobs win X) AND YU TIONG WON A REAL MATCH I WAS LIKE OMFG OMFG HE WON? OMFG LOL!!!! Got 1st eventually... Isnt this called match scandal? LOL

I make sure i wunt get any honeydew bubble tea anymore >< dun like the taste =.=

English and lit. I'm scared. More of eng -.- Worry bout my position =X

2006-10-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

Today so fun. Went Queenstown with friend to buy shoe. basketball de.

Took 153 then 30 mins ride so slow -.- then we dunno where alight lol... lucky alight right place ><

Walk around the complex 2 and a half times. First round is look at shoes, 2nd round is settle which shoe to buy, then half round to confirm the shoes tt have to buy -_-" Then go macdonald eat lalalala.

Then go home WALK WRONG PLACE TO WRONG BUS STOP -_-" Then nid walk to the right bus stop -_-" 2 people who are not good with transport >< hahs so fun.

Then another 30 mins back home -_-"

Went play basketball (with jeans and T-shirt -_-" and track shoes -.-) friend tested his new shoe, and decided next time buy shoes need decide another factor... tio step will pain anot -_-"

At least quite good bah... $79.90 ><

Then 8.45pm reach home -_-"

Yawnz hahs

CHARLES 46/50 FOR MATHS AND 76/100 FOR GEO OMG HE PWN ME AND YU TIONG

2006-10-08T09:54:00.000+08:00

Long time no blog =X

I am bored.

Yawnz

History haven even read the book -.- haiz fail history le

2006-10-05T11:04:00.000+08:00

Hahz exam. So stressful isnt it? But i dunno why everyday i still play 5 hours a day -_-

Hmm... who the heck is unknown spammer? He humji kia dun dare use his real name to spam. No life people spam hor. So sad for them. Must pity them.

2006-09-30T22:41:00.000+08:00

Haiyoh... afternoon yu tiong play com... audition =X then we play then he very pro liao wor!

Then he left... i night play. From lvl 1 - now every match i have NEVER got 2nd and below. ALL first. LOL i'm pro... MUAHAHAHAHA Until i tio d/c when losing lol. But not counted so tt means i win all the match ^^ I think i lvl 4 but near lvl 5 le. MAUHAAHAH and all win... MUAHAHAHAHA

Guess audition is really pratice makes perfect... Alot of it... made X7 perfect juz now =P and my game can have 28 perfects... while my noob opponent only 0 perfect and 26 greats -.- (wow perfect more than great)

Nvr study T_T lol

Let's have a talk after exams, kaes?

2006-09-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

Suddenly feeling so sad.. feel like crying... nevermind... haiz....

2006-09-26T15:18:00.000+08:00

Morning 6am preapre everything then dizzy then vomited then fainted -.- The feeling of faint so strange sia... its like things started moving around you then u close u eyes and bam. u r on the floor -.- Ok nvm this my style of faint -.-

Haiz... i am so bored at home.. 2 days and exam 2 days away ... grrrrr

2006-09-25T19:55:00.000+08:00

Ok. Today vomitted twice but at least feel better le. Except that fever argh. Feeling very cold now (though very hot on the exterior -.- and sweating like changed my top for 10 times and showered 5 times? -.-)

Dizziness still haven leave me... dizzy lol. Hope tmr wunt faint. O ya btw help me tell ppl not to disturb me... alot people dun read my blog de... so help me convey my message... Very dizzy...

TAN YU TIONG CONVEY THIS MESSAGE TO THE BOYS!!!! lol

2006-09-25T16:58:00.000+08:00

OK people. I noe its stomach flu but those 2 post is when i unconfirm. Please dun tell me its stomach flu all this whiel can mah? i know le thx alot. But thx alot that u guys cared too. Hahs. Thanks again =D

2006-09-24T18:54:00.000+08:00

Ok see doc. Say food poisoning/ stomach flu forgot which one le. Tehn reach home first thing vomit. Took medicine then vomit. Drank a cup of water then vomit. Took my 3 spoonful of porridge as lunch and vomit all out -.- Took my medicine again and vomit all out. Went to take a rest and vomit all over the floor. I smell my sis food and i vomit (i dunno why -.-) Drink water again and vomit the hell outta me. Walk to my room and vomit like there's no tommorow. Finally, i took 7 spoonful of poriddge this dinner. What will happen? Will i vomit?

Guess i will, have this churning feeling in my stomach.

2006-09-24T08:42:00.000+08:00

So sick.... Sick.... argh faint le -.-

Woke up at 4am just to vomit. Woke up at 7am just to vomit. Then wait until 8am vomit once more. 8.30am finally vomited another time. Whole sink choke with my vomit =X bleh gross. the things i ate for dinner ytd all come out -.- I DUN SUFFER FROM ANEROXIA -.- interestingly those food are still intact o_O yea pratically vomited everything out.... I think i still got 1 more round to vomit -.- zZz

Food poisoning?

2006-09-20T19:04:00.000+08:00

Long time no post. Back to school so sian =X Ha i like my hairstyle, but going to let it grow until like last time tt hairstyle -.- My haircut is specially for this exam de. And the other reason is i feel like cutting liddis =P

K i haven study. A little nia. T_T streaming liao still so slack... nvm.... weekend must start liao if nt i sure malau myself for final year T_T

So fast... near end of sec 2 le.... haiz...

Thank you for wishing a happy birthday to em but its next week =D But i appreciated it =P haha make me 1 week older =P

2006-09-17T19:45:00.000+08:00

Yay cut my hair le =P My friend mother say "You look so good liao still wan cut botak? I cannot bear to cut leh.... Oi Joo Chuan see your siao peng you want cut botak" (Translated from Chinese)

Then she cut until halfway then dunwan cut le. then ask me go barber cut lol. She cut until some sensible hairstyle before tellign me to go barber.

Then go barber i say "Can help me cut NS style?"
Barber: " You going NS ah?"
Me: "No la..."
Then continue talking lor lol. $8 for haircut -_- lol nt bad le la.

Then sis so shocked when see my hair -.- Mum see liao say nice -.- maid see liao oso a little shock. lol. Now waiting for other family members =P k do hw le. haven do -.-

2006-09-15T18:46:00.000+08:00

Today a very boring day. Pratically slept thru every lesson -.-

I dun get what a fook tt mdm kwei teaching sia. What AnB then what AuB chim -.-

English last paragraph anyhow do -.-

Today walk in rain for like 15 min? So shuang. Wet until dripping water even under shelter lol -.-
People with umbrellas keep looking at me. Lame leh walk in rain nia nothing big -.- Then got 3 pri sch boys (my pri sch -.-) walking with 3 girls... they all taking umbrella. But when the boys see me nt using umbrella they all act then put away their umbrellas. Lame leh -_- Then the girls like laugh like siao -.- Their destination : Macdonald. Freeze to death la them LOL.

Got home and amazingly no scolding -.- drip until a trail of water wherever i go -.- i'm a sludge moving =X leaving a trail of "slime"

Then play computer for awhile then wua fong called me. The talk between us is confidential. Ask me personally if you bothered about it. Just want to say that he sounded as though he had cried some time before calling me. He sounded very sad... haiz...

Then so sian nothing to do.... hair going to be gone on saturday. Muahahaha hope i look good enough in my new hair -.- (though i'm near bald if i go cut -.- which i will)

Will I miss my hair?

But for the sake of exam, guess have to do it? lol.

2006-09-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

Today was fantastic. Superb. Absolutely wonderful.

Ate my lunch of 3 packets of megee mee freshly cooked in 23 seconds. New record. Mom just put on table, walk to sink, wash her vege, suddenly i walk to her with an empty bowl -_-

Though got some conflicts in afternoon that sis friend wunt be able to go watch the "Forbidden City" then sis come home late then they 2 kpkb then took taxi to esplanade. (Ticket cost $32 and got restricted view -_- REALLY restricted.) Then wait for another sis bf, but then 2.50pm liao he haven come then sis fed up went in liao then nid wait till interval then he can come in -.- (which is 4.30pm... the show start at 3pm) SI BUI NICE.MUSIC NICE. SHOW NICE. EVERYTHING NICE.

The show is a mixture of 3 different scenes : The artist and the Emperess talking, The events that the Emperess was talking about and happening , and the part where the artist sent letters to the journalist. Mix perfectly. Wonderful. This is what I call a show that is unforgettable. But after the show got side effects: Bad ache (coz sitting at balchony there very sian, restricted view and must lean like siao to be able to see the stage) and dizziness (for me la.. coz its liek slanted downwards, and i got tt "motion sickness" looking down oso make me dizzy -_-)

After that went walking to Suntec City -_- Then go there walk walk at Carrefour -.- Then finally walk walk to see where to eat. Eventually decided to eat at Carl's JR. Woah seh $10.50 make me full liao -.- Then walk to hawker centre wan buy desert in the end i bought a plate of chicken rice and wanton mee -_- Now so fat le ltr i really become a bear X) Then go arcade.. daytona $1 per play -.- EEEEE CHEAT MONEY lol. All games $1 -.- use 50¢ coins. instead of tapping card -.- Marina liao? nt sureopposite = bowling liao then nearby is snooker

took 56 home... so crowded -.- hit my head against the ceilling again grrr bad being tall -.-

Now so full =X haha and hw today wan to do but -.- haiz

2006-09-08T22:27:00.000+08:00

Sorry everyone too bored liao nth to post -.-

SO SIAN HAVEN DO HW AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!11

OMG OMG AND TMR I GOING WATCH FORBIDDEN CITY -.- NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GRRRRR GRRRR HW HW HW OMG OMG OMG -.-

LEFT CHI ENG AND HISTORY!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!

Ok nvm -.- anyhow do bah =X so sian my handphone cannot type chi words -.- i miss my old HP can be my dictionary T_T now so amny chi words dunno how write -.- left blank -.-

Then Maple even rush from omega to ludi -.- in the end die twice 2% leh T_T

Crimson jr barlog thanatos 3rd job instructors... AND THOSE BLOOD EYE THINGY -.-

ARGHHHH AND DOOM FLOUNDER!!!!!!!!!

LASTLY, ZAKUM O.O (ok heard from peopel nt sure true or not)

SIAN AH MY HW HW HW CHAM CHAM CHAM -.-

2006-08-31T20:04:00.000+08:00

Celebration so sian -.- boring la sleep thru it. air con like no air con liddat (duh its oredi cold in the morning) then finally go back to pri sch

ALot changes sia... alot new teachers, alot new faces of pupils. Alot new facilities -.- (more classrooms) Then the skit so funny.. lol

Then walk aroudn whole school -.- Then finall decided to play basketball but too many people at court then play table tennis. Finall when play bb it started drizziling, then slowly it become a a heavy rain (yea very heavy) then can hardly see -.- But still play for 2 hours in rain, then after rain the DM come and shout "YOU BETTER GET OUT OF THIS SCHOOL RIGHT NOW. ITS RAINING AND U GUYS ARE FUCKING AROUND HERE. FUCK OFF!" yep fuck he said fuck yep yep unless i'm deaf o_O

Then walked to block 205 play bb -.- Played for 3 hours there. (drizzle - no rain - drizzle - no rain) toe cramp -.- lol very cold brr -.- dunno why when its raining can play so long.. maybe weather cooling ... more energy saved o_O but still become tired -.- fatigue -.- (dunno spelling) same la same la -.- just tt very nice.. now muscles very erm... unflexible? dunno the word -.- very stiff liddat and got headache and flu and cough and -_- no more lol

I'm bored. I want to talk.

2006-08-29T19:26:00.000+08:00

Today boring la. So sleepy lol... deprived of sleep sia -.- Now got new rule le. Night time MUST on air-con. I am like WHAT THE FUCK ON AIR CON U SIAO AH I KNOW ELECTRICITY BILL U PAY LA BUT EVERY NIGHT ON AIR-CON ?!?! Some may say its good, but in truth, it suck. Big time.

Cause: My neighbour staying below us. They every night on air-con, then the thingy emit heat, then heat rises, then blow into my room, then very stuffy. AND HOT.

Conclusion: My father wants my room to on air-con every night.

Problem: I dun like using blankets. In fact, I NEVER use a blanket. Hate tt wooly thingy =X if cold then wear long sleeve shirt and long pants -.- NOT BLANKETS !!!!!

Result: Planning to sleep in living room. LOL

Anyway today at school si bui boring. At least now boh homeroom system. But still move around -.- history boring. Dunno why la, it just plain boring, no matter how interestingly he try to teach us. Maybe because I have no interest in that subject. No wonder my history so pathetic marks.

Staring at phone now. Not for the sake of looking it it, but thinking about something related to it.

I am afraid. Afraid that Jean does not like me. Afraid that I got this misconceptions that she like me. OMG since when I am so jia lat?!?!

2006-08-28T18:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday. I was worrired. In moments of hesitation.

In hestitation on how to give a packet of things (put in a fairprice plastic bag -.-) to her?

Yes how. And should I give a slip of note? At first, I wrote a long note. As though it was a speech. I crushed the paper and wrote another. This time feeling that I was being a salesman, I did the same to the paper as the first. This continued for a logn time until I decided to write 3 words. You should know. But I felt it should be subtle and not so direct... slowly slowly man man lai... (thinking I'm an old-fashioned person ... no wonder I feel so pathetic...) Instead of "love", I think "like" seems the better word to use... (If I did use) In order to get to "love", shouldn't you at least go through the stage of "like"? I dunno why people nowadays jump into the stage of "love" without undergoing "like". (OMG I AM SO OLD-FASHIONED -_- but its true somehow...)

In the end, there were only the things I wanted to give her inside. No notes, no nothing (except the things inside duh) But I hope she will get my "message" ... But I keep on thinking giving things put into plastic bag to people seems a little... unsincere... But ... nvm -_-

Ok today liao... Still hesitating... but I promised to give her her cookies today. (Added extra "ingredients" inside though -.-) I want to request help from other people (her friends) to help me give her, but ... I think giving things personally would be better...

The ending of the story... I wunt say it out =D bleh =X

Jean I like you. Really I do

2006-08-24T19:15:00.000+08:00

Today. Feelign great it has been over. Felt that i got screw up some parts but.. heck lol whats done is done =D Tore up the kimono =X omg omg die die cham cham o.O

Yay can rest le zZz

o ya cannot.. haven do lit proj...

die die cham cham tmr die -.-

Counted in CA? grrr

8.30pm and i'll start doing. now 7pm. lemme relax...

2006-08-21T21:17:00.000+08:00

Boring day.. haven do CME... dun plan to do it anyway =X

Rehearsal... quite erm.... strange to hear your own voice booming at you.. lol. then i am the middleman of 1 microphone -.- from 1 end of the hall take mike then give to another person at other end -.- still cant say my lines well... hai... guess its because on stage nid rmb action etc.. until forget line -.- tiring day...

Thurs gonna act act act ARGHHHH OMG OMG faint -.- i am still the problem kia -.- no expressions -.- pronounciation suck -.- grrr all 3 teachers said tt -.- (Mr. Sanjay, Miss Tan and Miss Huang. ) =X nvm nvm at least i'm improving day by day =X hope i wunt forget lines on thurs :'( SCARED WHO CAN SAVE ME AHHHHHH!!!!!! lol now completely understand how kenneth feel le =X though his need more feeling than mine -.- mine need more memorising than his -.-

haiz.... busy busy busy =X SO CAN I TAKE ANYONE PHOTO PULEASE?!?! now only took wei ghee's de =X walk home with him got nth to do then take his backview =X SO WHO WAN TO BE NEXT AH? lol =X

tough day tmr. wed relax. thurs die. such a sad life ... lets cry our hearts out. and oh ya, our proj haven do -.- (lit)

2006-08-19T22:09:00.000+08:00

Flag day today. And it was sooo FUN. illegal gambling in arcade -.-

After yu tiogn left, which is around 4pm at tt time , flag people come in asking donations. Seeing no one heed them, they decided to challenge people there. Daytona 6 people. top 3 get $2 from bottom 3. Initial D. $20 per game. Soccer. $2 per game. KOF, capcom etc. $2 per game. Cool eh? flag people play daytona all lose de no fun -.-

left at 6, then dunno where go then go walk walk. Went to bought newpaper, french curve, bubble tea (oreo chocolate with pearl... not bad...) and a present for my newphew. Today spent $47.65 ... all from my own pocket T_T Argh.

At home then dunno what la. My medicine labelled "Take After Meals" . Ok i take my medicine after my meal at night (10pm) and my parents kpkb that i actually took the medicine. I was like WTF?!?! YOU BUY THIS MEDICINE FOR $50 AND TELL EM TAKE ON TIME AND I TAKE ON TIME U SCOLD ME. What is this world going to? Cannot complain. Complain liao oso no use. WTF should i complain for zZz. Anyway this is complanning liao -.-

GOt new handphone. "New" from my sis ... 6 month old... motolora de. SMS FUNCTION SO FUCKED UP LOR SEND ONE FREAKING SIMPLE MESSAGE TAKE ME 3 - 5 MINS. ZZZ at least can take photos le... I WANNA TAKE YOUR PHOTO CAN LEMME TAKE ONE? PLS PLS? =D

Still... THIS HANDPHONE SMS FUNCTION SUCK. WTF... SUCK SUCK SUCK SUCK SUCK.!!!

2006-08-15T20:57:00.000+08:00

haha... ytd a little scolding from miss tan for nt memorising lines.. today because acting too stiff -_-

But i guess i really too stiff le -.- Even miss tan said so -_- U VERY STIFF IN YOUR ACTING lol can go www.beattyeldds.blogspot.com there see tagboard -.- miss tan say everyone ok except me too stiff -_- TOO AMNY ACTIONS AND LINES HOW MEMORISE TT GOOD O.O IN 2 DAY SOMEMORE... nvm at least i'm a little better than wood =X maybe this may be good for future plans? lol. more open and thicker skin liao =X (by at most 1% )

i scared sia... next tues acting le.. and i'm just so... pathetic -.- lol last tiem is kenneth say all these now me -_- lols guess its just retribution for laughing at him =X haha. now he so happy with his role.. an orge child... 5 lines and can dance... cool eh? something tt can be laughed at right in front of me, with 300++ words and more than enough of actions and when to look at bloog orge and the audience -.- haiz... those pros one got such good emmories... but why most of them at NA and NT? LOL no offense to those people.

I guess what Miss tan said was correct... its pointless to be in a CCA you dun like to be in. Dun waste her time, your time, everybody's time. Ha... I made friends with only a sec 4 senior, whom is funny and going to leave beatty soon :'( and 1 sec 3 and 1 sec 1. only these few -_- if u exclude kenneth duh

chi proj is something so strange... dunno what to write =X mayeb i do report, maybe i do poem, maybe i do nth -.-

My parents oso so strange la -.- dunno what to say about them -.- guess ingaporeans kids are really too pampered. yea ... haiz.... being forced to do something by parents and when i dun liek and quit, they kao bei kao bu. councillor i quit they oso kao bei kao bu. everything about me kao bei kao bu. yea for my own good. but forced to do something is not something tt is good.

2006-08-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

ARGH MY 7 MILLION POINTS FOR PINBALL GONE JUST LIEK THAT NOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

2006-08-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

today sian? -.- Nothing to blog about... only home econ nice to talk about? (ok may i say my maths first) plus 1 mark and minus 1 mark. might as well not go -.- still the same 17 marks...method mark plus 1, presentaion minus 1 -.-

home econ.. all da boys nvr bring anything -.- (at least we brought ourselves) then do everything rushingly lor... yu tiong extra take so much sugar -.- (forgot to add in... see so many people take off tie... look awkward especially those guai kias.. nvr see them take off tie b4..) Then blah blah blah -.- i do the dry work yu tiong do wet work =X

Bake ah bake ah bake ah bake ah -.- wait for cake -.- 20 mins... yawnz... then finally ok -.- took plastic bags to put in the cake (chose which knife to cut... wanna stab yu tiong =X LOL JK!) then go canteen eat liek too sweet le -.- 75g of sugar he take until 85-90g of sugar -_- and i take too little flour -.- results in such sweetness...

Walk home with yu tiong tt time see 2 guai kias at the playground there... I think eating the cake oso bah? But i tot guai kias normally go home directly instead of hanging out? =X my thinkings of a guai kia -.-but still guai la -.- who say guai kias cannot stay together at a place and chit-chat for awhile? =X

Then walk halfway see mr singh scolding some people -.- for tucking out shirt or not wearing tie etc -.- then yu tiong hide behind me =.= to do his tie etc etc... then mr singh U-turn. then ZOOM past us. after seeing coast clear, yu tiong took off his tie and tucked out hsi shirt -.- i so guai =X -_- dun nid care bout him de lol my shirt always tucked in and i always got my tie on -_-

At home then nth to do... sigh...she not online i damn sian la -_- nobody to chat with :'( erm.. ok she was onlien but as i was reading newspaper and didnt reply her then she bored then sign off :'( awww so sad *crys*

play maple also sian la =X dunno go where train -.- PC bunk best la =X train at places spawn so sucky de... haiz... cant wait till lvl 33 then go leatty train -.-

SIAN LA!!!!!!!!!! WITHOUT YOU SIAN LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am bored bored bored bored!!!!! DEAD BORED!!!! ARGH!!!!! *went mad and please help call mental hospital to come catch me*

I don't know why I feel like this,
But able to chat with you online is such a bliss.
I wish I have the guts to talk to you,
Hoping this would rid of your blue!

(Dun think its possible though.. haiz... sorry.. cant help being pessimist all the time...)

2006-07-31T21:55:00.000+08:00

Today. same routine bah. bought fish buger (or sandwich) for breakfast... and it rained forgot bout this... haiz... foldable umbrella is unfoldable to me =X DNT nobody hand up anything -.- AND I GOT NO FORM =X -.- hope he forgot about my form and i dun nid go camp le =X

PE.... yawnz? dejun keep on drop shot (or whatever shot its called) then run in front he hit behind -_- then i also liddis pattern he bui song =X

eng and science = zZzzZzzZzzzZzzz sleep =X

chi -.- nid do compo... then leg put outside table also kena scolding -.- dejun head turn around kena sent out of class -.- tt wen jie tt lame sia...

then went out of school buy lunch =X bubble tea and chicken-fantastic =X then kenneth msg me say changed to 2.30pm =X haiz... then rushed back la =X tot 3.15 -.- met her (unsure whether use her name anot...) and her friends walking home(i think?) and managed to force a hello =X but guess too soft bah =(

then ELDDS is giving out roles to the plays we are having for the japenese people. I got 1 role.. that is a storyteller -.- guess i am not good enuf to be an actor yet =X other people got 2,3 roles me 1 =X nvm bah. step by step.

Walking and smsing can be dangerous =X knocked my head into wall while smsing -.- at least i got back reply ^^

home then use com =X chi compo took me 5 hours do finish =X (play maple, chat, talk on phone... etc etc =X) lit hw haven do =X haiz... maybe i should follow siping's advice on something o.o? =X (now addicted to using "=X" also -.- and dun forget my trademark "-.-" lol)

2006-07-30T18:40:00.000+08:00

Ahhh today... com fixed, any many other crap =X So long never blog le hahaha been busy chatting =X and mapling =X

Morning 8am wake up play maple until 12pm -.- then go Doggy Boat with Yu Tiong to PC Bunk. -.- nvm 1st time there so nvm -.-

Then walk walk walk go toilet, go zone X, go PC bunk see pros fight zakum (stood for 40 mins) then int he end alot people kao bei -.- zakum hat kena lotted by 1 lucky dragon knight (which we have been staring at for for the past 40 minutes -.-) so messy dunno whos who =X

haiz... will I ever have a chance? I dunno. We will see. See with eyes wide OPEN. lol...

2006-07-25T21:51:00.000+08:00

lol read yu tiong post... very funny hahaha make me laugh =X o well...

Morning... as usual...bought breakfast. then go lessons as usual... lit so quiet..... o ya forgot to add in mr soh talked to me -.- (wow... talk to him nid raise head not used to it... LOL) haiz nid write parents letter... zZz i dunno how to write one -.- nvm la juz write a slip ok le -.- thursday then give la -.- today so late parents come home got attitude problem dun dare ask -.-

school today boring.... =X anyway, released at 11.20 MUAHAHAHAHA -.- then go rehearse, i was at the control room standing for like 1 hour for nothing? (except running up and down 4 times...)

Before the show start, miss tan looked like she is going to cry... she wiped some tears away, i noticed. but the show was good, except that the mikes spoil spoil de -.- everyone wooo-ahhhh at kenneth kneeling and proposing o.o and the kissing part keep on shout kiss kiss -.-

went eat at macdonald -.- with dejun -.- then so sian nth do go shalom house but nobody home -.- then go home bang bang com then on CAN LEH !!!! o.O but then after 2 hours then hang and cannot use anymore-.- I AM SO BORED!!!!!

Then finally 9pm use this laptop -.- zZz then managed to chat to her for 10 mins only? :'( so sad T_T stomache pain -.- not diarrahoea but stomache pain -.- on and off -.- haiz... hope tmr riche act la i cannot act la..script change so much i dun even know when and what to say -.- hope riche can pei he me, and miss tan wunt fuck me over this .... *cross fingers* *chant* *pray* Amen. Please save me from such hardships. I am happy being a backstage crew, please do not let me undergo such torments.

LOL SINCE WHEN I BECOME SO CHRISTIAN?!?! -.-

2006-07-24T19:31:00.000+08:00

Com spoil so sad let us observe one minute of silence for my 6 year old com....

Ok basically a nice day today -.- didnt really fell asleep... relieve teacher say : you better tell the truth or if i found out it's false i'll fuck you twice over." he gay? nid fuck jun yuan XD

I FORGOT MY LOCKER CODE !!!! OMG OMG AND I LOST THE LETTER ALSO -.-

ELDDS... hmm... very bad =X ms tan si bui fed up. then liddis lor -.- then i hope i wun act on thursday -.- I DIDNT EVEN REHEARSE ONCE SIA -.- LYK ONG?!?! hope that riche can act both days -.- then kena pull by ms tan coz kenneth wrap me up in the curtain and punch me -.- (hello!! i'm kena raped here =X) then she pull kenneth shirt. sickness sure make her more angry

Then overall act is liek so pathetic... music haven got right, microphones nt in working conditions... curtain people dunno when to close curtains.. (ok my fault here..) so in the end.... erm... in the end of the show then it'll eb funny? =X

COM SPOIL LETS OBSERVE ANOTHER MINUTE OF SILENCE.

2006-07-22T21:53:00.000+08:00

today wake up, took bus go tracy house -.- 8am to 9am da project -.- haiz...

then went arcade with liping and yu tiong =.= lol liping dunno how play daytona -.-

then go cyber matrix... liping oso wasted money there -.- com hang still slowly get assisstance help -.-

then we go eat at blk 73... then i went yu tiong house -.- played monopoly -.- lalala lost -.- luck is not with me.

then go arcade again... -.- from 1 to 4 -.- spent $30 plus -.- zzz pok liao.. wallet left 1 $50 note nia.

then walk to the 40 story building go see see, then met keping on the way there.

o ya forgot to add in that i bought mcflurry again -.- XD

then go there 40 floor so windy... threw something down cnt reach ground floor -.- kena blown into someone's window at around 14th story -.- tt person suay XD scenery oso nice. but i scared lift will drop and we will DIE lol -.- (so pessimist -.-)(nvm i'm a pessimist anyway -.-) which sadly, it didnt happen -.-

Then walked home -.- lol walk walk sure is good XD then reach home, shower, PLAY COM LE WHOOHOOO !!!! -.-

finally lvled to 21 le -.- (5 days nvr play maple and yu tiong still cannot catch up -_-)

ELDDS.... let us await a not so bad, and a not so good show on tuesday ^^

2006-07-21T20:22:00.000+08:00

ahhh 3 days never blog.. so many new things to talk about.

lol srry hor got short term memory dunno what to type -.- but anyway, ELDDS rehearse though kena aot scolding, but overall its quite fun. ^^ now i backstage crew le hahaha ... ok... though getting better with each rehearse but.. still getting nowere if kenneth is going to be so stubborn ... XD

ok nvm friday mah... lessons nth to talk about... but lockers got code le... ok managed to hack jun yuan locker number... lol then mine is jia xun -.-

alot people actually planned to pon ELDDS, but in the end most people turn up ^^ isnt that a pleasant suprise? as no teacher is supervising us... except mr balan. THANK YOU! then after some rehearsals and etc, we finally finish everything at 5pm.

Go spartak-tarcock with kenneth and jinghao. (spartak tarcrow? dunno spelling... but use shuttle cork instead of the ball -.-) lol fun XD kcik for 30 mins, and made fun of NCDCC while they are marching XD HAHAHAHAHA see only a group thought only them then later go out see full view, mdm kwei, and the whole platoon there -.- LOL

then at the fitness corner outside school there stay for some long time. then finally when 6pm then started walk back home. haha fun day.

took bus 56... saw qiu rong inside... After C.O. i think? lol my attire then was tucked out shirt, tie hang so low, unbuttoned collar button... hahaha! Liddis sure leave bad impression bah... haha

then reach home sis use com until spoil zzz now using sis laptop zzz lol... busy chatting on phone, msn and reality -.- lol

2006-07-18T21:07:00.000+08:00

Today -.- copied hw from someone o.o ^^

maths -.- haiz... nvr do page 123 -.- heck -.-

lit... haiz tt group sian la.. na bei de anyhow talk crap -.- i mean the group members

chi... whole lesson skipped... due to chinese blogging... haiz...

history... erm... 1st time didnt fall asleep -.-

music... haiz his last leasson le.. then told us go his friendster see... then see le i was like OMG WTF WAS TT THE FUCKED UP MR CHIA ?!?! LOL

assembly... zzzZzzz

then go out eat .. then come back sch go to miss tan home room see kenneth there attitude got problem -.-

then juz there watch peopel act nia i reserve dun nid act -.-

then go home see sis play maple bowman pump all wrong skills pro -.-

then now using com and managed to control my diarrohoea... haiz -.- (took some medition)

2006-07-15T20:02:00.000+08:00

Friday... hmm... pratically whole day free periods except geo.. SHIOK MAN!

then go ELDDS to take script. Miss tan seemed so stressed liao... she is going bonkers .. really i swear dun belive go ask kenneth. or any other ELDDS member. really, she is stressed. VERY stressed. LOL MUST FOCUS TT SHE IS STRESSED!!!!

then 1.30 go up... late for the audio blogging thingy. LOL then me, kenneth and jeremiah dun dare go in XD. stood outside 10 mins, then decide to leave XD

Then walk home. OH YA I FORGOT TO ADD SOMETHING IN !!! I bought school tie le. I wore it at lunch time. But for some reason or two, it seems that after changing, i feel that the school tie is much lighter than the councillor tie, and that i can move freely in it, and i could breathe much more freely. Is this is it feel liek being free after months of imprisonment?

OK NOW I SAY I WALK HOME!!! threw the thermometer away -.- lalala -.- then erm.. yea walk home.. walked towards blk 4 mac? bought mcflurry (yes yu tiong if u reading it yes u read it clearly) LOL I AM ADDICTED TO MCFLURRY!!!! Took 232 and lalala eat on bus yum yum.

Then go home, call yu tiong, play laptop and com, play maple, he until lvl 12 me 14. then got peopel support him de.. UNFAIR!!!! nvm.. then go arcade... ARGH !!!! LOL STILL DUNNO HOW PLAY EXPERT -.- AT LEAST I GET BETTER LE!!!!

then meet kenneth at MRT to go for the play. go city hall. then there wait until 7.40 then miss huang came and gave us the tickets. then walked towards esplanade. then blah blah blah? lol then liddat o.o nid check bag sia o.o AND FREE SEATING O.O

1st play, i dun get it, but i think adults do. Its about a guy dancing as though the inspiration of vincent van gouh (whateva his name is) has, and tt i dunno... -.-

2nd play, peopel enjoy alot? esp the vulgarities. some parts are funyn too... "you'll never want to piss of a dolphin cause he may piss on you" and the ending , the female character stoof in her sleeping and shouted "WHAT THE FUCK, I STOOD IN THIS HUGE CONDOM FOR 30 MINUTES AND TALKING TO NO ONE IN PARTICULAR? I'LL GET YOU SON OF A BITCH I'LL GET YOU" and thus the show end XD

3rd play is 3 differen scenes happenign simultanously. (dunno spelling...) then i guess eveeryone like the part where 2 men are chattign tt scene? lol. starting the man flirts with the waitress. he asked "what is ur soup fo the day?

"Thai Bee Soup"

Reaches out for tt waitress you know where, "give me one of those thai then." then he continue " Do you have any hums on your seabed?" Erm.. hope u will get the meaning -.-

"srry no, our kopitiam no seabed but got hum"

"bring me soem then" reaches for the u noe where -.- then "do u got any stake? i wan juicy ones."

"srry no this is not resturant" lol -.- ok nvm too bad u all nvr see.. so funny... then ltr the 2 guys met.

"today very strange leh, i wan buy the things cnt buy. i go pharmacy wan buy panadol they say DUN HAF. guardian so big why dun haf panadol, then ltr i go take taxi i say wan go orchard road but taxi uncle say dun haf this place and brought me to changi, then ltr i go shell station wan buy thenewpaper, but tt uncle say dunhaf !!! how is all these possible?"

Then tt 1st guy say "u r living in potong pasir now. what u wan, u cnt get. so if u wan to get something, go do the opposite, liek for example, u wan order food, what should u do?"

"call waitress la. OI WAITRESS WAITRESS!!!!"

"oi u idiot, if u wan the waitress to come to you, u should ignore her." then true enuf, the waitress came to him after he ignored her.

"sir what do u wan order"

"i dun wan order"

"what food u wan?"

"i wan kway tiao"

"ok u wan hamburger (which is what tt guy wants) "

"i wan raw vegetable and raw meat , rawer the better"

"ok, fresh vegetables, fresh meat, what do u wan to drink?"

then say all the water name until the waitress askn (all say dun haf -.-) "do u wan tiger?"

"erm... no."

"ok 1 TIGER BEER" (which is what the guy wants)

SEE? ASK FOR OPPOSITE HOR EVERYONE!!!! GO MACDONALD SAY U DUN WAN ORDER HOR, AND SAY U WAN RAW BURGER HOR !!!! ESPECIALLY IF LIVING IN POTONG PASIR!!!

then go home around 11pm le -.- then use com until 12mn then slp le -.- tmr got project to do...

2006-07-10T20:03:00.000+08:00

Morning 1.50am wake up (so automatic i also dunno why) Then see sis using com -.- NA BEI LA CALL ME OFF COM DUN PLAY SO LONG FUCK HER LA SHE FROM 10PM TO 3AM NA BEI LONGER THAN ME STILL KPKB, THEN MY OTHER SIS LAPTOP ON FROM 5AM TO 4AM (23 hours) NA BEI STILL SAY ME USE V LONG

Then watch for a short time nia...-.- father can pop out anytime from his room de (but i noe his timing de, 2am, 2.30am, 4am and 4.30am) watched france and italy scored b4 go sleep -.- (in peace, coz no more shouting from the HDB hut or wherever they are showing the fucked up match)

Good that italy won, (heard from school duh) I HATE FRANCE TO THE CORE FOR BEATING BRAZIL XD revenge is sweet ^^

Then zZz forgot what happen in school le... juz rmb DNT boring, PE boring (i got gold for first time in my life o.O) recess sian, english boring, sci i slept, chinese zZz. Then say got what F&L meeting then -.- go there nobody.. then go ELDDS, then miss huang like "why do u come so late, do u noe to time to report?" so clamly (liek a calm b4 a storm)

Then, do the casting for the new skit. I pratically got chosen? no details will be leaked. ^^

so tiring lol.

read someone's blog until laugh lol... and talking to tt person on phone at same time.. had a good laugh ^^

2006-07-08T19:11:00.000+08:00

Today mornign wake up... then got nth to do play maple -.- lvl twice -.- (going to lvl up another time le..) 18-20 -.- LOL isnt that twice? ^^

Mage train at horny and green mush so easy train -_- (unlike my archer..)

Didnt know watching 2 girl talk at a msn conversation also can be so fun -.- but pang guan zhe also bei ma -.-

Then go tuition... missed last lesson dunno this lesson talking what crap then slept thru it -.- same
for science -.-

Then go arcade play again LOL wasted $2 against a noob... SEE ME TAP HE ALSO TAP SIA WHY ALL NOOBD MUST LIDDIS?!?! *nvm when play advance tt time with 3 noobs, i OWN!!!*

Now know why pros dun like car 6... GEAR SPOIL SPOIL DE, STEERING WHEEL SPOIL SPOIL DE !!!!

Spent $6, and another $2 on McFlurry ^^ yum yum

Then come home -_- *duhz obviously -.-?* then sis use com zZz

Then 6pm sis lemme use -_-

Now 7pm le.. haiz... OI YU TIONG TELL ME UR MAPLE PW I WAN PLAY UR DIT T.T

Mage so sian -.-

Archer dunno where train = sian -.-

Warrior play till sian -_-

Dit fun play but starting so sian -.-

GRRR MAPLE SIAN !!!

lol

Talking so much crap -.-

2006-07-02T21:49:00.000+08:00

Today morning wake up .. 9am.. nt feeling that good.. and com is SPOILT!!!!

then mother ask whether me wan go beach anot... (which obviously i dun wan) then sis see me at home so restless then lemme use her laptop. then bluff parents today no tuition coz the day after SYF XD MUAHAHAHAHA lol. then go to national library at around 4pm... took taxi cost $6... (dunno how to go mah 1st time go...LOL)

WOAH BIG SIA!!! 1st floor = entrance. 2nd floor toilets. YES TOILETS ONLY. 3rd floor i dunno what -.- B1 is where u borrow books, and for people who nvr been there b4... IT IS HUGE O.O i got lost -_- then borrow some books (25th hour, Dave and Sword, and a chinese book on soccer -_-) in the end left the library...

Then walk out dunno where is where -.- took arnd 30 mins to find a bus stop -.- then when took the bus 56 found out tt i took towards the marina bay de -_- then change to opposite side the bus to back to toa payoh -_-

Reach le then go arcade play LALALA first $2 wasted coz my timing all wrong... then next 2 dollars quite worth it... last round played advance with 5 PROS!!!! (i got last obviously) PROS AS IN PROER THAN TAN YU TIONG O.O THEY ALL SEE ME TAP THEN THEY TAP T.T BULLY!!!!!

then reach home le lalalala... WEEEEEE tmr no sch muz do hw lalala... ok bb i end my message here. XD